Spiritual Motivation

In the last couple of weeks, i've been a bit more determined to focus on the things of God and not be distracted so much by the things of this world. Unfortunately, things have not gone as good as i had hoped. Of course that should have been obvious but maybe not. It seems when I was younger, i was much more easily moved to change and more diligent about it, but as i've aged, i believe i'm more stuck in a rut. i try to change, but habits die hard and the emotional charge isn't has driving for some reason. I think about the truth of the gospel and my emotions aren't effected as much as they should be. my mind grasps it but almost distantly and unpersonally. I suppose that's a result of time spent in rebellion or drifting and the result is a few callouses on my heart.
Oh joy to my soul that God is in the business of softening hearts. Father, may mine be softened and made to do Your will. May i love mercy, act justly, and walk humbly before you, knowing that the only salvation i have from my sin and misery is through the death and resurrection of Your Son from the dead.
"Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, on the one hand I myself with my mind am serving the law of God, but on the other, with my flesh the law of sin. Therefore
there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." Romans 7:24-8:1